I know how I should feel, elated, older, happy. I know what my emotions are expressing, sadness, joy, fear. But the actual encompassing emotion is unidentified. If this were a perfect world I would be with my two best friends talking about how far we’ve come and crying a tad when we talk about the future. But reality is my mixing emotions have gotten the better of me and put me in a place of confusion. I don’t think there are ever perfect moments. For example when you hear someone is dead you expect to burst into tears; however, most are sent into denial and the tears come when they stub a toe or do some random action. I believe the reality that I am no longer a highschooler will hit at some random moment, and many of them. Only when I’m in the college world will I replace highschooler with college goer. No big bang of one costume to another but just a slight shift that is unrecognizable except for those small moments when it hits you.
(this only all makes since in my brain, I apologize to those who have read this far, this is mainly for my own sanity)
In all honesty graduation can be at any point I want it to be. I must put myself in the mindset and cazam, I’m graduating again. So what if this night didn’t turn out how I thought it would, I can merely create another night and call it my graduation. The power of the mind. After all, reality is only what we make of it.
Did anyone finish this movie?? She dies. I’d rather not die.
(Source: endlesslove-foreveryoung, via gummywars)
Working on my “to get” music list consisting of: air review, my name is you, John foreman, blind pilot, and 11 more artists (Taken with instagram)